There was one thought in particular that was like a virus. With this being the end, the same was being said of some friendships. This kind of thinking was infectious; leading towards a pandemic. The symptoms were noticeable: fluid being produced from the eyes, messy eyeshadow/liner/makeup, quivering lips, furrowed brows, and the occasional "I-know-we'll-remain-bffs" embrace. Mind you, these symptoms were usually typical of women. I think it's safe to say that any concern the male population had was staying under the surface. Luckily for me, I had already experienced this type of psychological warfare. I ended two friendships earlier that school year. But the feeling was nothing new to me. I always felt I was on the verge of losing people. I always prepared myself for when they wouldn't be there for me because now I know that forever doesn't exist. Arriving at this conclusion took me to a new, more difficult-to-handle idea. What would become of my current friendships? I was moving away soon. College was also about to start around that time. I had a choice; leave and forget or leave and try to hold on. I realized I'm not one to deal with the stress that distance can cause. Everyone's lives was going to start heading in different directions whether I liked it or not. I was accepting of that fact. Then another variable was thrown into the equation. I was friends with people who I would classify as high-maintenance. It was literally a full-time job to be their friend. They behavior was unaccounted for. I almost feel as if these people were put on pedestals because others wanted to get away! These people felt that they were entitled to special treatment. That you must be there for them at all times because that is what you signed up to do. At the time, I never thought of it like that. I always listened, obeyed, let their concerns outweigh my own. I didn't know better. I was like a woman who stayed for the abuse. I made excuses to believe that it was alright. That it was just them being them. Well, it wasn't until a year later did I truly realize that value of friendship.
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